i guess i was pretty out of the blog world for quite some time as im busy with test and other school stuffs.so yea now it is time for me to activate this blog.there are alot to be said and alot of stuffs for me to ponder about these days.i realised that i've not been appreciating loved ones around me.i realised that im a little too ego and want everything to be my own way.and i know that i think that im right most of the time.why am i like this i wonder?i've been trying to change but i do not think that it actually worked out.i would say that im more of a strong minded type of girl and once i made up my mind to do someting,i will definitely go all out for it.and i definitely do not like being controlled for things that i enjoy doing.am i really very childish or naive till i could not gain trust from other people?all i know that i think in a very far perspective.and all i think of is that what im doing is all for my future,either to gain experience,learn or even voice out for the beneficial of others without thinking the consequences.i've really realised that being too straight forward isn't a very good point of me.i do not know y but i tend to be real straight forward in poly.maybe i was just trying to be sarcasm as i always does but i guess not everyone can accept the part of me.i wonder how shld i be? be a good listener and not voice out anything?keeping mum most of the time and be the goodie gal all guys adore?being a good daughter and abide to whatever being said by mummy?or just be myself and maybe lessen the ego at time?i really do not know though.all the while i thought that im really an outgoing and outspoken type of gal and well,hyper and talkwative as well.i realy do not know how to be the bestest friend one can be.i know that i really really need to appreciate my loved ones and treasure them much more.i guess i sometimes just take up too many responsibilities?but i would say that those are my interest.camp,gatherings,organizing events and etc.those are stuffs that i like getting involved in since secondary school.things have changed alot i guess.i used to be like the role model of my secondary school.but now,i feel that im just an ordinary person with lots of defectives.i hope to be much better but i just do not know how.i might sound real ego and strong,but deep down in me,i actually still needs my mummy and daddy=(
i guess i was pretty out of the blog world for quite some time as im busy with test and other school stuffs.so yea now it is time for me to activate this blog.there are alot to be said and alot of stuffs for me to ponder about these days.i realised that i've not been appreciating loved ones around me.i realised that im a little too ego and want everything to be my own way.and i know that i think that im right most of the time.why am i like this i wonder?i've been trying to change but i do not think that it actually worked out.i would say that im more of a strong minded type of girl and once i made up my mind to do someting,i will definitely go all out for it.and i definitely do not like being controlled for things that i enjoy doing.am i really very childish or naive till i could not gain trust from other people?all i know that i think in a very far perspective.and all i think of is that what im doing is all for my future,either to gain experience,learn or even voice out for the beneficial of others without thinking the consequences.i've really realised that being too straight forward isn't a very good point of me.i do not know y but i tend to be real straight forward in poly.maybe i was just trying to be sarcasm as i always does but i guess not everyone can accept the part of me.i wonder how shld i be? be a good listener and not voice out anything?keeping mum most of the time and be the goodie gal all guys adore?being a good daughter and abide to whatever being said by mummy?or just be myself and maybe lessen the ego at time?i really do not know though.all the while i thought that im really an outgoing and outspoken type of gal and well,hyper and talkwative as well.i realy do not know how to be the bestest friend one can be.i know that i really really need to appreciate my loved ones and treasure them much more.i guess i sometimes just take up too many responsibilities?but i would say that those are my interest.camp,gatherings,organizing events and etc.those are stuffs that i like getting involved in since secondary school.things have changed alot i guess.i used to be like the role model of my secondary school.but now,i feel that im just an ordinary person with lots of defectives.i hope to be much better but i just do not know how.i might sound real ego and strong,but deep down in me,i actually still needs my mummy and daddy=(
